Song Lyric Sunday: Lost

hysteria nano

Hysteria By Nano (ナノ)

All of these cuts and bruises that will fade away,
I act as if they’ve made me that much wiser,
Another night I sink into my lonely bed,
To shut out every sound as I scream inside my head.

And like a turning wheel the time keeps moving on,
The pain from yesterday is now just so long gone,
And as I fall into another aching sleep,
The crying voice I keep on hearing echoes deep.

It’s every shameful fall, every mistake that I’ve made,
These are the scars that have brought me where I am today,
Another false conception that I fed myself to escape reality,

The only lie I see is now inside of my head.
The only truth slips through my fingertips in the end,
Let me keep on dreaming as I watch the days just pass me on by.

I turn another page of my biography,
And all the mysteries begin to fall in place,
Wonder why I wasted so much precious time,
I’d never find my life inside this clustered room.

I’m letting go today,
They try to measure the depth of all the scars that we have,
And try to prove to use that life could be so much more,
But if you only stop and take a look around you’d know we’re all the same.

And as I keep repeating all the days in my head,
It’s like an endless movie that has no happy end,
But the scene goes on without an answer,
And I will cry.

It’s every shameful fall, every mistake that I’ve made,
These are the scars that have brought me where I am today,
Another false conception that I fed myself to escape reality.

The only lie I see is now inside of my head.
The only truth slips through my fingertips in the end,
Let me keep on dreaming as I watch the days just pass me on by,
Pass me on by,
Pass me on by.

Lyrics from here.
Nano’s official website.

When I was still a student, I often spent my days studying hard and watching anime at home. Every day a mundane, unchanging cycle of work and watching anime. As days went by, often times I felt myself to simply be wandering without a destination. I studied just for the sake of studying and watched anime just for the sake of taking a break.

Even as I studied hard and started to cut down heavily on my time spent watching anime, I was met with failure after failure. My results just would not improve no matter how hard I studied. I tried different forms of studying. Reading notes, making notes, practising more and consulting teachers when unsure of my content or understanding. Despite ending up doing all of the above, my grades just would not improve. I was at a loss. With every failure, I told myself that I would see improvement next time if I worked hard. Every failure is an opportunity to grow wiser. Every failure would lead me closer to future success. However, all that was just an illusion.

I could not find it in myself to enjoy what I was doing. I was studying just for the sake of studying. I could not find my “life” in studying what I did personally care about.

As a result, I spent countless days wandering wondering when I would reach my destination… never realising that I was simply going through the motions without having a destination in mind.

I failed to see the truth behind my lie of “working hard”.

I was lost and did not know it.

– K.A.L.T


I decided to participate in Song Lyric Sunday that Helen came up with. Really love the idea and am looking forward to participating in this every Sunday. Hopefully, I have a song to fit the next theme as well. 🙂

Song Lyric Sunday


If you are interested, you can get Nano’s album “nanoir” which contains not only Hysteria but other amazing songs which I personally love through CDJapan by clicking below. 🙂

nanoir / nano
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