Major spoilers ahead!!!!!
Okay, this was seriously one heavy anime. I watched the first two episodes and was overwhelmed by it’s intensity. Two days later, I marathoned the remaining 10 episodes.
Each episode was so chock full of events or simply thoughts and ideas that my brain was fried by the end of the series.
Throughout the entire series, the show attempts to discuss the morality of suicide and whether it should be legalised. Later on, it branched off into the even wider topic of what exactly is good and evil.
Honestly, if I had watched this show when I was younger a lot of things would probably just have gone over my head. Even now, it took all I had to process everything that happened throughout the series. As good as I think it was, this was NOT an anime I enjoyed watching.
I was constantly in a state of despair or hopelessness at each situation. All I could do was continue to hope that the main character would break through in the end…
Honestly, this is probably the first time I’ve watched an anime that didn’t exactly end and felt that I wasn’t interested in what happened after… no… I was afraid to see what actually happened after. I feel like it’s something I don’t want to know. It’s something too dreadful for me to want to come face to face with. The culmination of evil Ai Magase was not someone I wanted to see come out of everything alive and well. She was creepy and evil to the core. Even across the screen she gave me the chills.
Honestly, this is probably one of the most unsettling anime I’ve watched. I felt uneasy throughout the series and was constantly bombarded with heavy ideologies and thoughts on whether suicide should or should not be legalised.
I can’t really bring myself to write much about the content and themes of the anime right now but rest assured that I will get down to writing a more in-depth post about the topics discussed in this anime soon. I just need to sleep on this and think things over with a clearer mind.
Right now all I feel is a void created from a blast of despair from an overwhelming evil.